奧運失利到憂鬱症發　女版「菲爾普斯」學習認識好的悲傷感

生涯獲得五面奧運金牌的美國女子游泳選手富蘭克林(Missy Franklin)，光是在2012倫敦奧運就拿下四面金牌，原本被寄予厚望在2016里約奧運能再創新紀錄，結果不如預期，她只在200公尺接力賽獲得一面金牌，其他個人項目都沒有收穫，也讓她陷入憂鬱症、焦慮症的夢靨，透過心理治療師的治療和精神鑑定，現在她已走出悲傷，不過2018她因傷而被迫提前退休，因此不能參與到東京奧運，這也是她人生中懊悔的事情之一。

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You guys have been SO patient, and I PROMISE #weddingwednesdays will be coming back so soon!! H and I have been traveling so much and can’t wait for the next few weeks when we can rest and then begin the celebrations with our Bachelorette/Bachelor parties!!! BAHHH🤯 So beyond excited. Meanwhile, I just wanted to put some honesty out there today, so hang with me if you want to. ——— World Championships start on Sunday, and it has been such a blast seeing posts from everyone at training camp, and it truly makes my heart so happy to see how much fun my teammates are having. It also makes my heart sink to my stomach, because it hurts so much not being there. I never wanted to retire at 23. I had goals for three, four Olympics, for double digit medals, for so much more. With that being said, I am SO STINKING GRATEFUL for the time that I did have on the best team in the world, with the BEST people and for everything I was able to accomplish and experience with them. While I’m still working my way through this transition, I’m being patient with myself and filling my soul with gratitude for the most amazing years I had with Team USA, and that is something I will never, ever take for granted. I trust that God’s plan for my life is INFINITELY better than anything I could come up with on my own, as He has proven it to me time and time again. While it doesn’t always make things easier knowing that, it makes them intentional, purposeful, and temporary. GOOD LUCK to all my loves this upcoming week. I’ll be cheering so loud you’ll hear me from Korea❤️💙🇺🇸

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小時候家人希望她能克服對「水」的不適應性，五歲就開始游泳，七歲加入游泳隊，那時她爸媽都沒有發現女兒在游泳上的天賦，而是泳隊其他家長看見了，反叫富蘭克林爸媽可以多注意。她在12歲時就開始和比她年紀大的選手一同較勁，翻開高中時的州際賽紀錄，各項目的破紀錄表格有一半都是她的名字。

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|| Let your smile change the world, but NEVER let the world change your smile|| ~Connor Franta #teamspeedo @speedousa

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在倫敦奧運選手中富蘭克林是第一位在奧運參加七個游泳項目的女性，2012倫敦奧運富蘭克林拿下四面金牌和一面銅牌但在四年後的里約奧運她的表現不如預期，結束後她在社群上公開自己正在與憂鬱症搏鬥的過程，那些日子每天的心情像是被車子輾過，且開始會自言自語。

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WE DID IT!!!!🇺🇸🌟 Another gold for the USA 4×200 Free relay… Those girls tonight swam their ❤️❤️ out! HUGE congrats to @arschmitty @kledecky @leahsmith19 and @mayadorito! It was such a privilege to be on the morning relay, so of course a HUGE congrats also incredibly deserved to @mmargalis and @cierrarunge❤️ Bringing back a gold for the USA is the greatest feeling there is. Felt God's presence so much, and know that He and all my incredible fans and supporters are with me through the next two days.

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請了心理諮商師陪伴在她身邊，治療過程她重新認識自己，「當你感到開心的時候，確實是放鬆的，但當你感到悲傷時，要懂的分辨是好的悲傷或真正的悲傷。」她認為悲傷是有好有壞的，這個方式讓她在治療過程中更能控制自己的情緒。

克服了憂鬱症，不過因傷在2018不得不提前退休，她坦言沒想過自己會在23歲就退休，她曾經想過要風光的站在奧運會場上，但一時的風光只停留在2012年，錯過東京奧運的機會富蘭克林已釋懷，她說：「人無法料想到一段時間後的自己會如何，我依然喜歡游泳，並替自己感到驕傲。」另外她也祝福明年東奧的選手都能熬過疫情，健康的參賽。

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